It is now 40 days since Yren's production date, and my doll has not come home. Moreover, someone whose production date was four weeks after mine has just heard that her doll is nearly finished.
Okay, I admit it: my first reaction was "Waah! Marina hates me!" But I'm recovering from that now, sitting up and taking nourishment again, and seeing things more calmly.
The waiting is hard to bear, but not hard to understand. Marina is not a production-toymaker, she's an artist. I do long for Yren to be ready soon, but waiting is just part of the reality of acquiring a work of art vs a factory doll.
As for why a doll from farther on in the production schedule is done ahead of mine...Well, I have two theories and not a thing better to do than write about them.
Theory A: The Tattoo Technique. The new doll was to have a tattoo, which is a very challenging technique with sensational results. It is entirely reasonable if Marina wanted to work on her immediately after doing several other tattooed dolls. She has written about her excitement over this technique in her blog--maybe she was just on a roll. Or there might be other reasons unguessable by me why this doll fits in better with Marina's current work schedule than mine.
Theory B: The Exceeding Beauty of Yren. This one's my favorite: Possibly Yren is already done, but she has emerged from the kiln and sprung into being with such a fresh new variety of beauty, not quite like any Marina has produced before, that she wishes not to be parted from her for a time.
Now this is not only understandable, it is maybe even essential. Would not an artist who has just created something entirely new in the world need a time of communing with that work, so that she can fully grasp and hold and own it? Wouldn't her growth as an artist be diminished in some way if her new-born works were torn from her hands as soon as the last lock of hair was smoothed into place?
If this is the case, I am willing that Marina should have taken a little time to establish a relationship with her creation before she releases her to me and goes on to her next vision. I hope she is about at the end of that process, though, because I can hardly stand to be inside my skin these days!
Or it may be the case that Theory B is romantic nonsense and bears no relation to reality anyway. But as long as it makes me feel better I'll make up my mind that way.